Yet I feel I have to tell his story, and my mother’s as
well, because I need the rest. I don’t sleep well. The weight of losing them
lies heavily upon me.
I suppose I should just pick a point, jump in and tell you
about my dad. So be it. While there are many stories I could use to begin this,
many starting gates I could pick for this tale, the place I choose to begin
with is at the ending. His ending, anyway.
Choosing to begin somewhere else is out of the question. If
you knew him the way his family and friends knew him, you would feel the same crippling
sadness that he was gone that we do. I could tell you about the man my father
was in minute detail. Roll out page after page of remembrances of his character
and draw out his enduring warmth with each word. Even allow you to catch that
brief twinkle in his eye when the evidence of his wit or charm surfaces. But
that I cannot do that before laying him to rest. I will not do that to you.
My father passed away two days before Father’s Day on June 18,
1999. He was died on the side of the road under the boiling Texas sun. My
mother was beside him.
He had a blowout while driving Mom’s car and died while
changing it. Mom would have been standing with him while he went about setting
up the jack, as she always did when he fixed things around the house. No doubt she
was peppering him with “Oh Bobby” this and “Be careful” that or standing
silently, patiently with her lips pursed. He would allow her to hand him things
or hold items, but the lion’s share of the work would be his. Dad grew up in a
different era where men took care of things for their wives and women let them.
The strain of working the jack in the hot mid-day Texas sun was too much for
him. He was overcome by his fourth and final heart attack.
I wasn’t there of course, so all my knowledge of these
events came from piecing together the rambling story that my mother told to
family, friends and neighbors. It was a hard thing to watch; she struggled
greatly to piece the details back together. I heard it many times. It was an
impossible thing to hear more than once, but the reward of listening to it was
something I desperately needed. This is how my father died.
(Continued)
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